Medusa: speaking

Medusa speaks and laughs through Helene Cixous. This is a reactionary text. It is engaging with Carla Harryman’s Adorno’s Noise. It is reacting to the concerns of a poetic practiced theory. A working through theory practically. Here it is Medusa who is concerned with finding her voices within Cixous text. Medusa speaking to find her body of text.

Medusa: speaking

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By by by by my owned offering of body spoken as it is of speaking contemplate bridge of a must no way is by way by as it comes from by non by product essential production. To speak engage directly non negotiable forward pushing of rupture tearing period as lawless partnership strung up against over future tensual tense turse tursive textual providing own own own own to push harder on pen is direct birth of own penhership considerable offer wordly negating land as a herstory bodified periodically penned organed out toward the non forward non where a without reason non request To gain from present a forced speech inherent inherent inherant in her ant in her ant in her aunt in her aunt in her aunts in her auntsv in her auntxi in her aunt true in her aunt cixous in her in her in her in her in her in her from a behaviour of chorality her fem femality across her ment.
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standing as I do at a platform prepared to become liminal preparation of time equats to a non sequence – her control over against the periodical attempts of a clock is brutal. Convergence brutality of a bruised minute. She within a carriage already will not stop here a non convergence but a straight linear fielding of time outward window foregrounded a force non passé decibal over shall I say sixty. Convergence a breath of veins to look up at tree to teach roots function to preserve upon a fledging greenery willing itself to remain present. Convergence non likening to a liminal on one edge faced to break – delineate
for delineate deliniat delinia delini delin deli del ded _ post terrant of winter
mark made
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Write this facing a windowed reflection of write this as a window reflection toward outside- shifting of subject from non focus glance of recollecting non facing and inevitable must a paler convert convention
can propose to write now under non disclosed as write on window. Outside common a non general forthcoming talk of non voice an hertividual her a classification denies plural form of shared body. Undergoing a home geneous presence con alterification begin faltering stream NON NEO to place a NEO offering a non way non way to negotiate non way to pluralise NON way to define non. Way to offer me non way to say now now way to element body non way to digress across non way of her plateau non way will non way to talk non way to write non way be non way as woman way non way __write non way be non way as woman way non way
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Poise not allowing for a comfort a slight
and upper. non chanced imaginary
encounters non deliverances from early
age touch was the base for cleansing as
a woman leant against green grass
blowing out breathes wind thou to.
Rest. I call it meadow from before
filted degrees apparent thant light tormel.
Will flaunt to can a memory so seemingly resuilt
in you fore presenting an isolation a fore
to dress pursed to non touch gen the
an inscribular no verbal request concerns.
O slight resting over curious at
age of self can consume a non
window facing for willing non
willing as an attempt concave
depending palm concave ever
so slight pleasant grounding eye
wider to sit as a rest is as ever a gain.
a a a vowels to form resonating
understanding stand in base of
a fledgeling glimpse of that
eye in a to task of an inked
to tilt till it
to burn over breath
concave beneath control
birthing breast purely
subtle rippling against
jagged

unfurling a width
su down a right draw
curling under between pedi
resting breathes non to plurality
boundless a rub over a
as touch pen as
folded against and resting
placement slight to frame
sea tulping after tulping
to tide venus up tied over
freedom at age in non in but
against this stretch against for non
latten against to tilt against
to touch against
to line against
to against
to against
to against
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Wishing from a sovereigned goal facing
Empirical streets of women from over bountiful plains. A recircling would ask to draw in from you non negotiating but counting newness amongst friend amongst gender amongst my form Consider where internal allows for gap of a space a void to be framed filled to bursting. A seizure upon voided offering shall we consider the veil
a rustling papered body in which conjunctions thwart outwards. Pressing over and through and around a passing from anxt towards. A veiled towarding A veiled can I ask you about desire?
for a momentary relies upon veiled frames. Preparation of a veiled begins by reframing an intricate panting from breadth to re paint. non premium place – when I asked around desire please stop. Halting within a framed negotiate tempered cannot walk within I didn’t respond to your desire believing from withstanding own for fore, A
puncture within veil bleeds void onto your desire puncture of veil to bleed hair forth out write. To begin with a punctured veil insist of no desire desire desificates a non unity a puncture invent practical infinite bleeding out – a breadth _out out towards from. She veiled void consist of a pre-supposed passing counting newness amongst friend amongst gender amongst form. to bleed is unwilling is waves seeping outwards bleed is to be non accused non thought reaching beyond voided veil bleeding excess elivinity punctured veil bleeds from about punctured veiled bursted for your desire,
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shouting can you walk to the edge of your room begin shout SH OUT SSH OUT SSSH OUT OUT presence secure presence of breath upon you to out. At age before considering when out will come when some will exude into multiple. At the edge of your room standing facing wall breath upon paint panting upon wall chipped out through body chipped against. Sore surface because facing because writing because it because you because you because you
To bury
To forget
To excuse
To edge
To secret
To punished
To didn’t
To irresist
To come
To go
To be
To face without excuse Attribute surface forward Standing aware of feet Facing surface To shout To sh out To ssh out to sssh out
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to embrace against paged machine Forge a bearing of won page own body as machine mechanism of hand over nail towards pen Against for now economy Reason for to dwell on Reason to dwell on economy to dwell on object to dwell on for transpositional convex transvex trans vex trans sex Against for no reason but myself –female –trans –of off of off economic trans economic pre trans economic –pre your of my – facing ed I tore mechanism for chan ism.
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conquering lay at plural cause for this is non play categorisation over me body for your body forward and convex for concave speaking fluidly she vexed lays seize at the sink To look passing over water refracts a “belief” lay at plural valley concave facing convex inherent void inherent waste inherent non inherent inherent in her ent in her end in her in her in her in looking Fluidity fluidity standing at the sink dailey from looking in her looking for vexed lays out convexing before her convexing out water confirms presence balanced concave she vexes concave she vexed concave she vex,
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Enter the past, Large white triple doored wardrobe where legs dangle, over the bed. praying can be heard on landing. RED. fuchsias scent pale. powdered mantle boxed. beneath leg/ enter the forget. desperate to tell colour of carpet it is not heath non preserved non alive non memory non. Gapping over gap causal of condemnment. to condemn. to non memory. to dangle. frigidified.[1] non rest. fidget memoretically. fidget to find – non locality powdered fidgeting legs pale. dangle. where doored praying the mantle can. white fuchsias beneath boxed leg. triple on landing. RED. bed be heard large wardrobe scent/ enter the forget.
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Lowered perspectives as legs dangle a road a green penetrable elipsed steps behind echoe forward now. Confined. Dangling between internal knees resting upwards torch penning to the right. darkened responsively
darkened
loss can cause and inflict
lack of being lack of
to know being lack of
placement to
because am in room am in room am in room. Because he is in woman he is in woman he is woman.
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Convex remains eyes at point stress looking. Lacausal can strike logic. Looking strike anti-looker. To strike away strike and remove strike a look put on lipstick and strike upon him remain eyes lashes at point of looking strike to past anti and remain mirrored graciously to strike lashed and lipped
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Mouthes lined thick culturally
Becoming non voided image
Painterdly licking coloured lips
coloured and activates mouths
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Poreal breaking at the introduction signals resurrecting welcome system gesture praying outwardly to transcribe over it transcription of corporeal to begin mirrored introductions. Extending. Yes.
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unification presumes a unit
of whom you I they we are
units from to in at of
unitary in wholeness of time
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This in present. decidedly questioned?
Unit as solidity
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In early voice heard. Aired banded of her and this new. Pleasant from one to this now. Rooted voiced in linearity. Must early voice left for this now. Echo upon hills from this now.
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Returning to shelves. The fact can often be clearer from a fas. Returning to shelveds. The fact can often be inscribed from a far. Returning to shelf The fact can data be and this if not a
and when not
and certainly not
and why not
and what not
and she not
and fact not
and she fact not
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Let you insert here. a parent remark




[for my marked gains political social and economic frustrates area, For admittance takes below For land plateaued is resting For marks made must bury]
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TO REMEMBER TEXT BOOKTUALLY NON INSTIGATED HERE. FOR NOW. PLEASE BEG FOR THE ENTIRE. RESTING ON MAT IT SWALLOWS HARD. TO REMEMBER. OFF ONCE DEEPER. MAINTAIN. SELF- SELF- SELF- CENTRALITY COME. IN REASONED. TO REMEMBER. TEXT. HEARD. BEGS. A. SELF- A SELF –A SELF.
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lying non now non now pushing a breath on a page to sweep over and against and deepened it with a code. of lined against lined scented traditional non rushing if you could see look at them eyes her bring it on a gallop a lunged noise a rooted vein. pulsing. Inner ear he would say thru is the rub as she rubs she rubs he there to her Lying trough on and around papered over with body against non tell wired from within for her lunged down tilting. tilting. papered tilt lined against forefinger penned for rub non negotiate with her penned story.
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Believe. as one does not deathed.
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Pooled between remain separated. To create present. To presume. Convex. Multiple.
-- dangled and lurid the between convex and concave liminality attains and utters its growth. A cattled being, woman. seeks to turn from without itself. immensively cattled tapped by inability to hear a called from a fear but to call the liminal non. Fielded and grazing considered there a dangled place but to become to hear to write calls upon and toward breaths sourced to tear away thwarted
without itself. Risk of a push pull relationship offer non resolve non restolution –
the digression of rest locates her breath in a non place. Sonically vacuumed a direct pushing communicates the uncodable between. To rid the between is to buy place the culling of the liminal; a begin of Her
flawed we beg in Her.
= sitting hands under thighs a sitting to listen a sitting to listen a sitting beginning to a sitting biting of lip A sitting aware of temperature A sitting looking down a sitting raised shoulders a sitting heavy feet a sitting dry mouth a sitting a sitting willing TO BE OPEN MOUTHED VOICE OF STRAIGHT TONE AN EVENT ABLE and then hands actively
lip
temperature
looking
shoulders
feet
mouth
willing
raised and forceful anti silence words spill for you must work catch loud the voice asks to lie between body and mine. Waging an occasion of speech beyond. For liminality is broken in the live. The presence forces plurality. The presence of heard voice forces body upon body upon body upon body upon body upon body upon body upon
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Once governed as a hunted voice to now hunt out a silence Resembling governed can we come to the edge of border. Resting place. from. around. through. reserving place over order.
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Utterances public utterances lay bare. utter an she says. From behind table. Drawing on body. Shall I listen to the entire list. Bodily. Duggest. Calm. TILT. Forward becoming traceable. Utter on she says utter pursed the rub of public lips shall listen. Public in a tilt shift to trace in aired voice.
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page pressing face facing pressed page. Two feet facing away pulling between tonsil to toe chords tighten forming distress – paged stress.
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dangling between tonsils between wombed. A pilling of device internal rebuilt of text la langue dangling between in from her role as child to role upon age to dangle a front to flood. Between body to tilt slight tense up piling devisal convexing salivating paged to breath through page.
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Sourced. A running tongue over teeth convexically lexical for to mean between place. stand. Body against body for can we define. Hovering over to flutter up through. seemingly eyed she it rests upon (body) or (bodies) it rests in ( ) and ( ) with (body) is all which leaves space in ( ) is a don’t not don’t make.
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Drives from momentary values. This radical will might over. She system bases seizes reactionary.
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Pre-
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[1] placement causal breaks mematic memory. banish may be strong usurped at a bodily youth placement breaks memory. memory breaks placement